Monday, December 26, 2005

Christmas in the West: A Puzzle on the Ground

So, here we are, a day after christmas and several members of my family are ill from food they ate yesterday. To be perfectly honest with the readers of this text, I'm not feeling brilliant either, but I'm not vomiting, I'd actually rather keep it that way.

So christmas was actually exactly what I wanted it to be, quiet, laidback and comfortable. Aside breakfast at the in-laws house in the morning, the day was pleasurably comfortable. I still miss home, but this was among the best christmasses that I could have wished for away from it.

I spend most of the day head down in my book, listening to good music. At the end of the day, I managed to score some coke and chocolate just before the video ezy thats a one minute walk from us closed. It was a lovely day, quite warm, and I sat out and tried my best to help keep the tan I only had to walk to Lynelle's to attain.

So now I sit, with James, Bailey and my Grandmother all sick, and I wonder whats it's going to be like over the next couple of days. I'm starting to get into a routine here, living each day as it comes. I know I'm going to have to be here until the end of my stay, so being so forlorn about it isn't going to do anything. I miss the people at home so very dearly, but me being all pouty and non-enjoyable isn't going to bring them to me. So I have to occupy my time so I don't have so much time to be so dissagreeable.

I have a few things to do today, and I'd love to see the city again at some stage, but everyone being ill kinda keeps me housebound to a degree. I'm tempted to get a map of Perth and see exactly how far away from the beach I am and try and plot a way to get there. I have three weeks with which to spend my time, and I need to be sure that I get to the beach as often as I can in that time. All I can say to that is that I will work as hard as I can to get there as often as I can, I need a strong natural presence to connect to yesterday as I used an excessive amount of my energy during the day and I need to recharge fairly seriously. It's been a while since I've flexed my own magical muscles, and I found that while none of my skill has left me, a lot of my endurance has. I'll have plenty of time to hone that while I'm here, but right now, it's just occured to me that this is probably why I feel so ill.

Anyways folkies, I'll leave you with a quote for the day and bid thee adeui, till next time.

"Begin today! No matter how feeble the light, let it shine as best it may.
The world may need just that quality of light which you have." - Henry C.
Blinn


FallenPhoenix

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Song Lyrics: Mind of thier Own.

Heard a song on the way over to Perth, was meant to post it in the last post but forgot. Here it is in full detail.

There's something I'm feeling, there's something that's wrong
These streets are revealing, in the early morn,
The war was last night, these wounds are not healed
If we keep believing, then we've gotta feel

As it goes
By the story that's already told
Comes a time when we all must let go
What happened to the story
Discontent it cuts inside
It's not meant to, be this lonely
We were never meant to fail
Something that's crawling
In my skin
Emotions are falling
As it begins
I lost all my virtues
Long ago
I didn't want to hurt you
But now we know

As it goes
By the story that's already told
Comes a time when we all must let go
What happened to the story
Discontent it cuts inside
It's not meant to, be this lonely
We were never meant to fail

Never meant to fail
Never meant to fail

As it goes
By the story that's already told
Comes a time when we all must let go
What happened to the story
Discontent it cuts inside
It's not meant to, be this lonely

We were never meant to fail
We were never meant to fail
We were never meant to fail
We were never meant to fail
We were never meant to fail

-Alex Lloyd, "Never Meant to Fail"

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Have a Happy Holiday: The Thousand Mile Paradox

This is the first in a series of posts which find me on the other side of the country, a place which I am happy to say is among the most picturesque I have ever been to in my life. Perth, from all accounts, is simply stunning, something I cannot really do justice with simple phone pictures and description, those closest to me will be recieving postcards within the next couple of days, but don't be too offended if you do not, I had money for only three of the opulet little buggers, and I had to be fairly selective with my choices of who got what.

I had my first adventure into the city of Perth today, which, while short lived, was pretty stunning. The entire city is built on a series of wonderful rolling hills, and all the houses seem nice and open. This has to be the cleanest state capital I have ever visited with some of the most amazing architecure, with only Melbourne coming close to it's scenic value. I've never seen a city filled with so many glrious tree's. It's great.

The city is marvellous to be sure, and although I am only early into my stay I am happy to say that this place looks like it's got a lot to discover and I have a full three weeks to work it out.

We had like a neighbourhoood barbeque last night and I got to meet a lot of James and Rachels friends, something I was glad for. They seem to be in a really warm neighbourhood, and thats a good thing, because when you've got three young kiddies, it's good to have the entire neighbourhood looking after them.

The flight over to Perth was a good one, I got to see the most awesome lightshow, a thunderstorm from 30,000ft. Thats going to be something I remember along with the glorious sunrise which made me fall in love with the sun when I was coming back from India. I always had a respect for nature and seeing lightning jet out of the top of clouds on a black background flying over the Australian Bite. It was spectacular.

I'm over a thousand miles from home at the moment, and every single inch of it feels like a blade through my soul. I love my home, and I love the people there and it's going to be a very challenging couple of weeks over here. Still, I'm trying to stay resolved to have as much fun over here as possible. Someone very close to me, and a few not so close have said that this trip is probably a good thing for me, because I am coming a little bit too dependant on certain people. I beg to differ, I quite like the feeling of dependance after so long on my own, but still, there is merit to what has been said.

So now, all I have to do is keep positive and keep in touch with people. I'm just remember how much fun Rachel can be, and having someone intelligent, well worded and interesting around to chat with is a boon I needed. We have a lot of similar opinions, and the ones we don't share she is willing to discuss, which is something I have a lot of fun with, so that should be good.

Ok folks, with Christmas just tommorow, I wish all of you the very merriest of christmasses, and a happy and Safe holiday season. Look after yourselves tommorow and stay sensible. You have all my love folks.

Cheers from the West...

"No minute gone comes ever back again, take heed and see ye nothing do in
vain" - London Plaza Motto, Perth, Western Australia.


FallenPhoenix

Monday, December 12, 2005

Dreamweavers Melody: Hope Springs Eternal

I'm sitting in the Leeton library at the moment, kinda confused because I've had my government benefits cut for being 21, something I wasn't entirely aware of. I guess it's just a matter of making a few phone calls and getting everything readjusted, but we'll see.

I really can't talk for long, but I decided that I needed to make a post because I needed to explain to everyone a few things that have been happening in this world. I'm back in an enigmatic mood, so when it gets to the key stuff, you guys have the fun part of working out who I mean.

At the moment, my heart and mind are set on wagga, I am focused like nothing on this earth. I will make this happen guys, because my future depends on it.

Now, here's where it gets interesting.

  • One person has surprised me this week with thier ability to be such a nice person one minute and not so nice the next, I think this person will always be one of my closest friends, but more of a brother than an actual mate.
  • One person this week remained strong after adversity threatened to claim them. I trust this person and know they will be alright.
  • One person this week proved to me that they care even when they say that they do not. They proved they have a lot of courage to keep as close to me as they do, and will always be close to me.
  • One person this week proved without a doubt that they were too scared to divulge thier true self to me or anyone else. They continue to wrap themselves in lies, and although I will never say a word, they continue to lose status in my eyes.
  • One person suffered yet another blow to an already harsh year this week, and is continuing to roll with almost unbearable punches. This person has demonstrated a strength of character I'm proud of, and I salute them for it.
  • One person this week has managed to demonstrate exactly how desperate they are for attention, going out of thier way to attract it at every available opportunity, it is a shame that they have done damage in seeking this out, as it will doubtlessly lower thier standings with me as a result.

I will leave you all with a thought that will make no sense to anyone, not even my closest and best. Dade, even I'm dissapointed in you, you gave up something so special, and you don't even understand it yet. I still love you little dude, but you need to wisen up, you know your brother loves you, but you've caused what must now follow. If you ever need anyone... you know where I am.

"Music is the life of the spirit, the heart of the mind and the joy to the ears;
live this passion and you will see the light beneath the
darkness."
-Anonymous

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