Ritual of Rebirth: The Chocolate Score

Okey dokey folkies. It's been a long while since I've posted on here and as usual it's not for lack of anything to write about. Quite the contrary actually, I've been that bloody busy with work, uni and other, that I've been too busy to write it all down. Now, as a result I'm going to miss about half of the stuff thats happened since the last time that I posted here purely because I don't have any way to remember everything. In any case, I will endeavour to try to include as much as I can muster. Here goes.

Since my last post one of the major things that I can say has changed is that we lost one housemate and gained another. Ned moved on shortly after I returned from Queensland and was replaced by Christian. The energy in the house has changed and it's something that everyone involved is still sort of getting used to. Hopefully we'll all find a happy medium soon enough and things will start to feel a little less strained. Time will tell.

Wrok has been progressing frightfully quickly and frightfully often. I bitched at my boss one to many times at my last staff meeting about how our inventorying system was stupid and have been given the task of doing the inventory for the entire bloody store. I really put my foot in it with that one, because it means that I get a permanent shift every sunday forever. I'm working on having that moved so that it doesn't bar me from ever returning home, but I can't hold my breath. Bossman seemed entirely pleased at the dismay on my face when he announced that, so I don't think it's going to be going anywhere soon.

University proceeds smoothly, although a new opportunity presented by one of my new lecturers this term has seen a slight change in focus for me. I've always been interested in studying psychology as part of my studies of education, but it was recently bought to my attention that education is now a focal point for the science of psychology itself. Furthermore, the growing field of Educational Psychology is becoming increasingly needed in the Australian Educational climate. If that didn't sell me, nothing else would have. With a slight change of focus, I'll be cramming in as many psych subjects as I can physically muster with the last part of my degree, finishing with a Bachelor of Arts/Bachelor of Teaching. After that, I'm aiming to do an honours year in Psychology and then study Psych in the workforce for two years before becoming a qualified Educational Psychologist. It's the dream for the moment and it's so very possible. So qualified. ^^

Anyways. Onto economics. Due to the new set up in the house, I recently reached out with the money that I have to buy myself yet another computer, bringing the total that I own to three (and the total that I have financed over the last 12 months to three, though not the same three). My new computer is literally shiny and wonderful with it's wonderfulness. I wub it so. Hmmm, that reminds me, it's very silent in here. Musik plez!!

Lastly for the moment, I went and actually auditioned for Australian Idol this year. They decided to go to Wagga and I am pleased to say that I decided to audition. Pleased in one sense anyway. Of course I didn't get in, but the atmosphere on the day was amazing. There was so much talent and so much music everywhere. On the day, three people got through that I saw and I was about halfway through. There was a lot of waiting, as is the usual for the competiton. I got to see Dicko off camera, and he's not nearly as scary as people seem to think. Nell got hugged and massaged by Ronald McDonald. And not just any Ronald, it was THE Ronald McDonald. The one from the ads. She and Ronald are an item now, he even asked her out. Oh, Nell, darling, I do have photo evidence of the whole thing as well. Bwahahaha!

Anyways, for now, I'm spending Easter alone. It's becoming a nasty habit. This is the first year that I've missed both Christmas and Easter with the family. I feel a big gap growing between myself and my family. Not my grandmother obviously, but everyone else. It's hard to explain to someone who doesn't honestly know my family well, because it usually appear as if I'm on the outside of my family looking in, and thats often correct. But my connection with any of them, even James and Jess, has been wearing thin. I think in part that it's my doing, and I think I know why as well, but it's something I'm going to have to internally explore before I discuss in too much length here.

My easter wish this year is that every gets in contact with one family member that they used to be close to once upon a time and just see how they are going. Off you go now folks, I'm about to do the same.

When age chills the blood, when our pleasures are past--
For years fleet away with the wings of the dove--
The dearest remembrance will still be the last,
Our sweetest memorial the first kiss of love.

-George Gordon Byron

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