I used to be so adamant that I was a representative of chaos over law. I enjoyed change, I was creative and I was certainly anarchistic to a point but at this stage the thing I want most out of life right now is stability. I am about to move to Wagga on a much more permanent basis and I can't help but feel so very scared that the only stable part of my life is about to be ripped out from under me. My own space, my home, my friends and my family are all going to be an hour and a halfs drive away, which is an entire day away when you can't drive.
It doesn't make a difference to everyone else, living in thier stable little lives happy with the fact that they can see me when I come home. See, what they don't understand is how much I crave for the stability I'll be losing. I need these people. More speicifically I really need my own space. I might look tough on the outside but really things that would hurt most people seem to make me so very tired of people in general and I need a place to crash when it just gets too much and now I'll be sharing that space with someone. I can see this being a problem, I know I can keep my temper even if it kills me, but it's gonna make me very tired and I've experianced the downside of that before, I don't want to repeat it again.
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Do you still feel like your stabilty is being taken away dude? Are we just going to be incursion on your little space of the world? I would like to think we are more then that. I like to think we are generating stability. I know i should know, but there is so much i don't.
You didn't look at the date on this did you dude, it's more than a year old now.
Not sure if I agree that you guys generate stability in me though... I think that might be a slight stretch...
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