Monday, December 12, 2005

Dreamweavers Melody: Hope Springs Eternal

I'm sitting in the Leeton library at the moment, kinda confused because I've had my government benefits cut for being 21, something I wasn't entirely aware of. I guess it's just a matter of making a few phone calls and getting everything readjusted, but we'll see.

I really can't talk for long, but I decided that I needed to make a post because I needed to explain to everyone a few things that have been happening in this world. I'm back in an enigmatic mood, so when it gets to the key stuff, you guys have the fun part of working out who I mean.

At the moment, my heart and mind are set on wagga, I am focused like nothing on this earth. I will make this happen guys, because my future depends on it.

Now, here's where it gets interesting.

  • One person has surprised me this week with thier ability to be such a nice person one minute and not so nice the next, I think this person will always be one of my closest friends, but more of a brother than an actual mate.
  • One person this week remained strong after adversity threatened to claim them. I trust this person and know they will be alright.
  • One person this week proved to me that they care even when they say that they do not. They proved they have a lot of courage to keep as close to me as they do, and will always be close to me.
  • One person this week proved without a doubt that they were too scared to divulge thier true self to me or anyone else. They continue to wrap themselves in lies, and although I will never say a word, they continue to lose status in my eyes.
  • One person suffered yet another blow to an already harsh year this week, and is continuing to roll with almost unbearable punches. This person has demonstrated a strength of character I'm proud of, and I salute them for it.
  • One person this week has managed to demonstrate exactly how desperate they are for attention, going out of thier way to attract it at every available opportunity, it is a shame that they have done damage in seeking this out, as it will doubtlessly lower thier standings with me as a result.

I will leave you all with a thought that will make no sense to anyone, not even my closest and best. Dade, even I'm dissapointed in you, you gave up something so special, and you don't even understand it yet. I still love you little dude, but you need to wisen up, you know your brother loves you, but you've caused what must now follow. If you ever need anyone... you know where I am.

"Music is the life of the spirit, the heart of the mind and the joy to the ears;
live this passion and you will see the light beneath the
darkness."
-Anonymous

FallenPhoenix

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Grr I've said it before and no doubt you will give me cause to say it again but unfortunately you need to start telling people what you feel because in the end it will only lead to despair and unhappiness for you if you don’t. I hope that for once you will listen to other people’s advice and realize that accepting it does not make you a weaker person.

Mirokû

Anonymous said...

it seems you were wrong about your quote; i believe we are fairly close... and i do understand it...though i cant tell if your speaking of me, i would prefer you to say how you feel to the people in question phoenix. You may think you can't but i believe in you and know for a fact that your are stronger then you try to show, in every aspect. use the power you weild, dont be afraid...tell people how you feel about them to their faces...i hope you take this in, because im sick of repeating myself...goodluck...

***Shadow and Light intertwine***

FallenPhoenix said...

I'm intrigued, I'm not even sure who has been posting in my own journal. I have a few suspicions, but I'm not sure, so I'm making a request to whoever posted that last comment to please iidentiify themselves to me. I'd be really interested to know.

Cheers.