Monday, June 20, 2005

Shadowed by Yesterday: Flames of the Future

I honestly think everything is beggining to work out. I have had a pretty shitty semester on an emotional level but I guess everything works out in one way or the other. I have had two different friends come to me today and tell me that some issue in thier lives has been made easier or completely solved, and you have no idea how good that makes me feel. I feel like although I am shadowed by all the stuff that has happened to me during the first half of the year, I, along with the people I care for, are finnally moving forward.

I think I've finnally recieved the power and encouragement I need to move forward. The Shadows of Yesterday are being dispelled by the Flames of the Future. It sounds so fantastical, but it's got practical applications too. I am now more than ever focused towards that elusive degree at the end of the road I have chosen. I am foucsed on the individual destinies of my friends, and helping them to achieve thier fullest potentials. I have focus. You don't understand how good it makes me feel to write that. I haven't been focused for the better part of five years. I now know for sure where I am headed and how to get there.

Hmmm, it feels like with direction comes purpose. I got me a life to live and I wanna enjoy whats left of it. I've spent far too much time worrying about all the problems and issues that I've been dealt. Life is like a game of cards and it's time I discarded some of the shitty cards I've got and get me some new ones. Time for a new round. Game On!

"Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising, which tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage." -Ralph Waldo Emerson


FallenPhoenix

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I wonder if you still have that document on your computer, relating life to a card game, the strenght of the hands delt, etc. I wonder if you even remember it. It's not like you to forget. Yes you have had some shitty hands. But time has the power to deal us new hands, or even the power to reshape the deck

FallenPhoenix said...

Yes dude, I still have the doco, and I refer to it often. I don't forget something like that, because it was actually a fairly inspirational peice if I do say so myself. It was addressed to you, though I have shown many people parts of it over the years...

It's amazing how things come back to us in cycles.