Well, he was here today. Actually he woke me up at 3:45pm this afternoon. I love waking up to him, I really do, and he does it with such a playful sort of innocence which is so sweet. Innocent but very guy like, as in he still throws stuff at me, which is perfectly ok from him.
In other news, I have to go back to University on Friday now, and Ned is coming over tommorow for the weekly hockey meets that I used to play in, of course thats completely impossible now due to the situation with my knees.
I don't know that much else happened today, all I do know is that I would do anything for my boy... *sigh* All this pining is so unlike me, I wish I had a little more self-control and the ironic thing is that I usually do. I am more or less reserved with my feelings, it's very unusual when I actually let my feelings out into the outside world. There are very few people who I trust that much. No-one has ever, and will ever see me cry for an emotional reason, and I don't think anyone has seen me cry out in pain either. I mean I broke my jaw last year and Jarrod and Jess heard me cry out, but thats it.
Wow, I'm a total emotion nazi... how interesting. I don't like to show emotion because I think it weakens me. I don't want people worrying about me anyway, thats my job. If all I ever get out of my time on this planet is making the lives of other people easier, then I'll have acheived my goal.
The only other thing I want from this life is to experiance mutual love... and that goal is slipping further and further away...
"I've learned that goodbyes will always hurt, pictures never replace having
been there, memories good or bad will always bring tears, and words can never
replace feelings."
-UnknownFallenPhoenix
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