Returning to the Source: Time Begins Again

Well, I had the most awesome trip to Canberra on Saturday to pick Nell up and bring her home. Ned and I drove up and back in the one day and it was quite an adventure to navigate through the streets of Canberra, and although I do not have my liscence (shame I know... ) I can navigate reasonably well with a map, so we had little problems. I'm glad Nell's back, I really am, I missed her and she was only gone a week. It must just be the psychology of distance because I don't get to see her during the week anyway and although I talked to her almost as much, I knew she was 400k's away and that made me miss her. It's funny really, I'm not sure how to act around Nell, she works actively to bring me out of that shell I've so carefully constructed around myself and usually this would just make me put up more walls. I don't understand why I don't just keep building walls anymore. It seems like she might be having an effect, something not even Tam was able to do. On thinking about it, Nell and Tam have a lot in common. They are both strong women, comfortable in thier beliefs but willing to listen to others points of view. They are emotional, caring and assertive. Many hugz to both of them. I've got little else to say in this post, it's got to do with Nell and I don't like rambling about any topic for too long. I will however, add something random I picked up from her blurty purely to take up space and be insightful. SECTi0N>1: ABOUT YOU_ +` name: Steven +` gender: Male... -_- +` height: 6'4" +` hair color: black, very very black +` eye color: grey, though thats debatable... green and blue often come up too. +` location: Wagga, New South Wales, Australia +` fears: losing control, losing a friend to something unavoidable (accident, illness) SECTi0N>2: HAVE Y0U EVER_ +` peed in your pants: lol... umm not that I recall, and I have a pretty good memory +` cheated on someone: hmmm... no, and nor would I... +` fallen off the bed: yeah... I think this means at night, so definately yeah... +` fallen for a relative: not even close, though I did have a 40yr old aunt crack onto me. +` had plastic surgery: yup, I just had a boob job recently :P +` failed a grade: lol... I've failed subjects at uni, and I effectively failed yr 12... so yeah... +` broken someones heart: nope... had it happen to me, but never done it... +` had your heart broken: repeatedly.. cause I'm stupid and a sucker for punishment +` done something you regret: *sigh* probably not no... +` cheated on a test: Perhaps we should ask Mrs. Papasidero about that one...? >:) +` broken a body part: yup, broke my jaw ice skating, and my arm going to the toilet in India. SECTi0N>3: CURRENTLY_ +` wearing: generic jeans and a long-sleeve jumper +` listening to: my own typing and indian people moving around outside my flat... +` chewing: lol... I am drinking coke occasionally, but when am I not... +` feeling: kinda tired, kinda hungry and kinda bored... but then the Jas-man will be back in 15mins so I'll be ok I guess.. +` located: In my room... I'm always in my room in Wagga... +` chatting with: No-one, I'm all alone, it's nice to have that sometimes... +` watching: lol... ummm... the screen? I don't multi-task that well... +` should really be: doing uni work, or more questing stuff... probably both, at once... or at least thats what our players expect of us, to toil away night and day for what? thier silly little praise? oh thats wonderful, do you think we even get a thankyou? no... never... they just assume that we can do all the work that they get to enjoy for questing in our sleeping time and then have time for everything else but no, we can't we aren't computers, as much as they'd like to think it... (end random rant about questing) :P SECTi0N>4: D0 Y0U_ +` brush your teeth: not nearly enough, and I can feel it starting to have an effect... +` like anybody: hmmm... too early to say just yet... I'm gonna say... meeebeee! +` have any piercings: lol... yes, I have multiple nipple peircings, seriously tho, I had my left ear peirced when I was little, but it's since grown over... +` drive: ah ha... ahahahahahahahahaha.... ah no! +` believe in Santa: *sigh* I got over that at the age of six when I found my grandfather stocking the tree... it wasn't even dissapointing, Pa knew what to get me better than some creepy pedo from antarctica who wore red pyjama's anyway.... +` ever get off the PC: Ummm... when I come home to see my friends I do, but I wish I had a laptop, so I guess that doesn't count. SECTi0N>6: THE LAST PERS0N Y0U_ +` hugged: My dear Grandmother +` gave eprops to: hmmm... Nell's, but thats only because I'm taking a stab at what an eprop is. +` IMed: Taco -_- +` talked to on the phone: Nells +` yelled at: Like full on yelled at... god... I honestly don't remember... +` fell in love with: ahem... what would be Atco... yeah yeah, so I'm stupid... +` tripped: hmmm, Ned, I seem to trip him a lot. SECTi0N>7: PERS0NAL_ +` what do you want to be when you grow up? I wish we could go further with questing, but knowing that will never happen, I'll just have to propegate it till I die. I wanna be a teacher. I think... +` what was the worst day of your life? Didn't know it at the time, but it was a day in 1999, the last time I ever saw my two brothers... they left a hole in me I want filled so dearly. I wish we could be a family, but my stupid mother wont ever see that. Stability is the anti-christ for her. Damn her... +` most embarrassing story: lol... that would have to be a beach in north nsw, I lost my swimwear in the tide and then had to walk back to the caravan park in nothing but a beach towel... I was 16 +` the best day of your life? meeting my bro's for the first time. We clicked so instantly... *sigh* +` what comes first in your life? my friends!!! +` do you have a bf/gf/crush? meebee +` if you had an extra set of eyes, where would you put them? Wtf mate? +` what do you usually think about before you go to bed? Usually about what I am going to have to do tommorow... yeah yeah yeah, I'm a boring person. SECTi0N>8: FAV0RiTE_ +` movie: The Radio Flyer +` song: "You Believed" Casey Donovan and "The Rain Must Fall" Yanni +` store: Logical Choice, your one stop shop for all your gift and hobby needs, 181 Baylis Street Wagga. +` relative: Immediate Family: Grandmother (Beth), Mother (Katheryn), Half Brothers (Frank and Sam), Uncle (James). +` sport: I am sporty insofar as I like sport, I can't not in my family, I was never very good at it, though I did have a knack for soccer, though the novelty of kicking a leather ball around a patch of grass rarely held my attention for long. I was far too snobby as a child. +` vacation spot: the beach *forlorn sigh and drool at the same time, then a subsequent choke as he realises thats impossible* +` ice cream flavor: strawberry *hangs head* +` fruit: apples and banana's... fresh indian mango's... oh god, those things were freakin' orgasmic... +` candy: my favourite candy is... ummm... well... WARHEADS!!! yup +` holiday: Queen Birthday, cause it's always when stuff happens... +` day of the week: I life Friday's, but that's usually because I get to go home, I cannot do that anymore... +` colors: Red and recently blue... SECTi0N>9: D0 Y0U_ +` like to give hugs: No... though I'm learning... +` like to walk in the rain: I love rain... so yes... +` sleep with or without clothes on: with at least some clothes... I do live with two guys here... +` blue or black pens: black is the way to go... +` dress up for halloween: I've never done it, though I wish we actually celebrated the holiday here, I feel like we are missing out on the celebrations for nothing. Tho halloween is just a retardation of All Hallow's Eve, which I do celebrate, and I do dress up... +` have a job: professional student doesn't really cut it huh... part time unofficial councillor, game co-ordinator... I'm busy enough without a freakin' job thankya! +` like to travel: *sigh* yes... but it'll never happen again... a trip to our capital is like an oversea's holiday for me... +` sleep on side, stomach, or back: usually on my side, sleeping on my arm... it's died a few times because of that... +` think you're attractive: Nope... ugly as all sin.. :P +` want to marry: Do I want to marry... at this stage... no... I don't think it will ever happen, but I feel it's pretentious of me to say it never will... +` have a goldfish: Ummm... no. +` have stuffed animals: I had one once, I won it at Dreamworld... my dog used it as a chew toy, we were both happy. +` go on vacation: No, though I'd want to go with friends, so if they stay at home, I enjoy my holidays nonetheless. SECTi0N>10: 0THER QUESTi0NS_ +` do you go to church? nope +` do you like church? It's not a valid question anymore, but the Catholic church bored me to tears... +` why or why not? I answered this already, so stop badgering me. +` what's your favorite kind of tree? Pine Tree's, I love them for some reason. +` out of all your friends who has the coolest room? Taco has an awesome set up... Ok cool, well I am gonna start the next one now... cause these are fun and time consuming. Weeeeeeeeeeee.....

Which friend is the.... .: x craziest- Ned is clinically insane. .: x sweetest- Nell .: x prettiest- Tam .: x smartest- Cassie .: x girly- prolly Jess... she's more friend than family .: x easiest to be grossed out- most of my friends have strong stomachs .: x blondest- that would be the Jas-man .: x honest- Nell .: x trustworthy- Ned and Nell .: x sporty- Jess .: x animal lover- Tam .: x computer genious- Alan .: x blurty nerd- Nell the journal whore... .: x funniest- Ned just cracks me up... .: x drama person- Jassi is a total drama queen :P .: x band person- Matt... he actually has a band that matters >:) .: x person that always gets their homework done- Cass .: x flirtiest- Ned... hehehehehehe... *giggle fit* About your friends and past friends .: x which friend have you known the longest? JD .: x which friend have you known the least? Prolly Matt .: x who was your first best friend? Nick Lewis .: x is he/she still you friend? if I ever see Nick again, we'll have a lot to talk about... we float in different circles, but he and I still get along ok. .: x which friend do you miss the most? Tamsin Skye... god I hate the distance between us... .: x has one of your best friends ever moved away? Yes.. first to Wangaratta where it was possible for me to see her, then to Melbourne. I swear that girl is just looking for a way out... : x who has the most classes with you? I have no friends at uni... .: x pick one friend and tell one of your favorite memories - Jarrod, at my 13th birthday party, with him being absolutely petrified of a blue glass bottle full of fat air. Hehehehe... so cute and gullable... so much has changed... wait... what am I saying... no it's hasn't :P Which one of your buds is most likely to.... .: x be a teacher - I could see Ned in teaching, if he ever gets off his ass and gets to uni... silly boy .: x become a computer person - If Alan isn't training to be a compy technician already, then he should be, the guys a whiz with them... .: x become a stay at home mom - any of my female friends could, tho none of them would like it. Probably Nell the most, she has a lot of love to give and I could see her not wanting to leave her kiddies... .: x live life on the wild side - Ned, although there is something about him that secretly screams for stability... I want someone to give it to him one day, I think he deserves it. .: x travel all over the world - Jess wants to, let her. .: x become famous - Tam for her jewellry, she's just so good at it. .: x fall in love before 20 - Tam is in love, and Matt loves her. They are so good together. .: x become a sports star - Jess could have before her accident, but not sure anymore... .: x not go to college - No idea... probably Ned, tho I'll kick his ass if he doesn't... .: x get married twice - Jessica... .: x have 4 kids - Nell, she's the type of person I could see being an awesome soccer mum, and she'd love each and every one of them. So warm that girl. .: x become a telemarketer - *shakes head* I would wish this job on none of my friends... possibly Taco, selling vacuum cleaners at 5am in the morning, pleading with the camera for someone to please buy his sales so that he doesn't have to eat cardboard again... .: x be your best friend throughout your whole life - Ned and I should remain close for forever... .: x be at home doing nothing but eating and watching tv - lol... why do I see Ned again... you better not bro... : x be a serious business person - Jess is training in Organisational Management, she's gonna be a CEO one day... so definately Ned. .: x become someone with a job that helps people - Hmm.... Jassi's gonna be nuking people to see whats wrong with them so that someone else can fix it... does that count... mmm radioactive isotopes. .: x end up on survivor or the amazing race - Jess and Jarrod, and they'd be yelling at each other all the time, it would be most humourous. Would make for great american television.

Well focal's, I'm done for now, and where once I was bathed in delicious silence, I am now bombarded with heavy music and the sound of six (count it, six) people in the flat, only 2 of which live here. So I will bid the journal adieu, and I shall see thee all next time.

"If you don't wanna love me, don't love me. If you don't wanna touch me, don't touch me. 'Cause I don't want you to do anything that you don't want to do. If you don't wanna miss me, don't miss me. If you don't wanna kiss me, don't kiss me. 'Cause I don't ever want you to do anything that you don't want to." -Tamar

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