There are two paths in this song, for a very important person in my life that has been around for long enough to have a very complex set of experiences and feelings. It’s impossible to summarise all of those feelings here. If you do some archeology on the blog, you can actually follow some of the context in real time, but I’ll try and provide as much guidance as I can.
Ned was my first true straight boy crush. I refuse to believe that there is a gay person on this earth who hasn’t experienced this during some point in their lives. Some might have even taken the pathway that I did and enveloped in their own hubris thought they could change fate and change someone’s truth to get them to fall in love with you. This doesn’t work. It took a lot of time to realise that.
In this man I have a lifelong friend that I’ve sacrificed for, supported, treated horribly, fought for, fought with, dodged, chased, loved and hated. This is not a one note story - and I will not treat it as such. This is going to break a rule I had for this part of the project, but it’s not fair to run it any other way.
I’ve always followed my truth. And if this is where the Lost Histories make their appearance, so be it. Truth here, if nowhere else.
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